Self-hatred

Posts Tagged ‘me’

Building up mental inertia

I’ve sunk myself into virtual worlds and escapist fantasies since last September. There was World of Warcraft (a lot of it), fantasy, novels, and the Internet as a whole to run off into while I had my breakdown. It was great. Brilliant. I need to stop now, and get back in line with the real [...]

Aafke came a-visiting.

Vlastik has been quietly encouraging me to get away from Sligo for some time. He was one of the first people I spoke to after my breakdown, and he has been sympathetically pushing me to get out of Sligo and into company. As I admitted elsewhere, I badly needed a support network to help me [...]

[MUD] The Game

To start with a verbatim quote from an email: As some of you know, I Fell Off The Face Of The Earth toward the end of last year, and beyond some consulting HTML and CSS work, I haven’t touched code about the end of last August. I am in need of some kind of project [...]

School update

I wrote code for the first time since last summer, and with coding, comes some fairly hard choices what to do with myself after the summer. I’ve burned a lot of bridges over the last year, burned them very well indeed. College, over the past year, has been a complete loss. I’ve been on time [...]

I have spent the past six months hiding from my responsibilities, family, friends, college, and classmates. If you a friend or family member, you know why I crashed, you will understand why I’ve been contact-adverse, and you may also have seen me at my worst, or near enough. What you haven’t seen is the procrastination, [...]