Taken at Blackrock, Dublin.
Listos version: Lots happened, more yet to come. Stay tuned.
Something something legacy shoulder injury, proper ten-fingered touch typing is hard. I type fast in a ten-fingered style, but it is weird and left-dominant. Correctly keeping both hands on the home row is hard. Grumble.
There are times when I envy what gods give to their believers: a sense of identity and place in life, and a higher power you can call on in times of need. I grew up with a growing realisation that the godstuff made no sense. I’m logical and literal and limited by my fundamental lack […]
Sure what else did you expect when I had a shit battlestation?
You can just feel the Linux dripping off those nicotine-stained walls. Yeah, fuck parents who smoke in their own home.
I came, I mailed, I left. To paraphrase the problem: An Post will not accept any package with a battery or electronic device inside. No way, no how. Except when such a package comes in from outside the country, and then they’ll happily deliver it. But An Post still won’t accept such a package for […]
My kitty cat loves me so. :3
My life since the Autumn of Autism has become a chain “oh, huh” moments, little pieces of self-discovery that flow one into the next. Put together, they outline a substantial blindness in myself, of myself. It’s a thing called alexithymia, where I don’t know what I feel, when I feel it, even though I still […]
That’ll be the title of my autobiography: I Mean It This Time: A lifetime of apologies from my strange self. The diagnosis turned me into some kind of quantum special snowflake. ASD flags me as a Tumblr-grade special snowflake, but at the same the stress of my stress is boring and ordinary. I wrote the […]
This post will be the two thousandth on my blog, give or take. I want it to serve as a bridge between the eleven years of ups and downs in my life behind me, and the bright and unknown future ahead. Eadaoin pointed out to me that, yes, I threw up other retrospectives in the […]
Taken by Eadaoin in Brussels, Belgium.
I close my eyes now, and open them two years ago. The sun is on my face. There are only two colours in the world, green and blue. Water laps, insects buzz, and the wind sighs soft in my ear. The only things I see are the lake, the mountains, and my friends. Eadaoin’s by […]
Eadaoin asked for urban exploration, for parkour and excitement. I have no idea why she giggled at me when I delivered.
Nobody told me how hard it is to be an adult. When I fucked off out of school at eighteen with the dregs of a Leaving Certificate clutched in hand, there were no expectations laid down. Like, I was a graduate fuck-up whom no college or university would touch. I fucked around for six months […]
I have it, so eh, why not flaunt it?
And this during our ‘conquest’ of Knocknarea.
I subscribe to the idea that we are the byproduct of a dumb, deterministic universe, although I stop stop of acceptance of full-on causal determinism. Everything, everywhere came about because the physical constants of the universe all permit stuff to happen. Worlds form, stars fuse hydrogen and galaxies fly away from one another into the […]
Luas strike: Getting a bus like ‘The Hunger Games’ Mark Grealish, Windy Arbour, said his previous experience of getting the bus during a strike was like “The Hunger Games” and “way too hard”.
Influenza, the black death, the red death, greyscale, galloping crotch rot, cooties, leporsy. Call it what you will, death is nigh.
I’m confused as fuck. On Wednesday our lodger reported that €150 missing from her wardrobe. On Thursday I discovered somebody had stolen from my change jar. They took only the €1 and €2 coins. On Friday, after a lot of talk, our lodger reported this to the Gardai. We had a 10pm visit from two […]
In January I got sick of being fat. All around me, clear to see, were middle-aged (45-60) year old people who didn’t take care of themselves. Most of my ex-wife’s family struggle with being overweight; diabetes is ubiquitous and even my ex-wife is seriously obese. My dad died of an asthma attack at 63 which […]
Alanna and Casey came down last night. What a night it was! We had coffee in Clement & Pekoe, sushi and ramen next door in Kokoro and a round of pints at the Brew Dock. Then we went back to Dundrum for homebrewed mead on the couch. On Talbot Street saw two scumbags fighting (or […]
I bought a mechanical keyboard: the Vortex POK3R/Poker 3 keyboard. I mean, I sit at a desk and type six hours per day, five or six days out of any seven. A keyboard is my tool as much as a plumber uses a wrench, and my work-provided Magic Keyboard it shit. It controls the Mac […]
From on high an order has given unto me: I need to blog more. Okay, sure, fine, whatever. Here we are. Most of the real meaty content on this blog came out of my personal pain. A few years ago, shit blew up on me, I had a breakdown, and I poured it out here. […]
Eadaoin snapped me on a swing after breakfast at The Dean yesterday morning, and added it to our syzygy.
As a self-taught coder, two of my (supposed) comforts are the intelligence and formal education of my peers. I mean, they literally went to school for this! They graduated, and then behold!, the depth of their expertise is such that they were hired on as Serious Professional Coders. It’s a big comfort blanket I can […]
So, I shit you not, but last night I dreamed about SQL queries. I was sat at my desk, at work, and there I SELECTED, JOINED, INSERTED AND LIMITED with all the fury of someone who has a job to get done. I don’t know how, but I have managed to avoid any knowledge of […]
Don’t mourn for the dead, but celebrate their lives! You’re the conscious end product of seventeen billion years of wheels and cogs a-whizzing in an unconscious universe-sized machine, and when you’re gone, you’re gone; there’s no heaven, God, gods or any other kind of happy forever after waiting to receive your shriven leftovers. This is […]