Mark Grealish

Cats and wizardry.


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Mindfulness

I am here, now. Mark now is Mark now. Mark then was Mark then. I’m not him. Last year has gone and next year will come. Everything in its own time. Tomorrow is tomorrow, yesterday is yesterday. Breathe in now, breathe out here. Here is here, there is there. Now is now. Here, now breathe […]

My Fortress of Cozy Solitude

It’s a bit of a fail when I have to work from home, but when I do its the cosiest place to be.

Five Years Slimmer

I’m a skinnnnnnnnny bitch now! On the other hand, today’s breakfast was two soluble Panadol, a croissant, a cup of black coffee, and two-thirds of a Dairy Milk. I try.

Another Notch

Weights and scales and charts and numbers are all well and good, but it’s the new hole I punched in my belt today that’s the visceral sign of losing weight. I’ve used each notch at one time or another.

The Language of Agency

Given my personal history, how we grant agency has been a topic I’ve wanted to explore for a while. Despite her book’s many other problems, in Why Does He Do That?  Lundy Bancroft shows insight when she describes abusive decision as a function of the abuser’s value system. Each person has a decision structure-their value […]

Majestic Mountain Man

Taken on my way down from Fairy Castle today. Yes, that’s ice. The weather was fucking brutal on top.

I Don’t Get It

Over the last few months I’ve lost a bunch of weight-and continue to do so. At any given point, now will be lowest weight I’ve reached as an adult. Along the way here I learned the fundamental of compassion. With it have been able to reach out to the people in my life and become […]

Intent and Effect

Effect matters more than intent. It doesn’t matter a whit that I tell you what I intended, when the way I affected you has been are the clear opposite. Consequences are asymptotic-they echo on for years and only slowly taper. The foundation of a good life lies in the ability able to balance your needs […]

Howth Narci-selfie

Because I’m awesome and handsome and manly. And hairy and wrinkly. Featuring grey hair. Umm. ᕙ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ᕗ ?

#narcieselfie

As I said last night on Instagram, I can’t get over how much my face has changed through my weight loss.

On Abuse

I have been an abuser. I committed physical violence against my spouse and children. For the longest time I manipulated and isolated my spouse, played them against their family and friends. Gaslighted and undermined. I attempted to control them by withholding money. I cheated on both my spouse and long-term partner. I’ve been that oily […]

Big Data

Go running and healthy eating! I’m under 70kg for the first time since I turned 25.

10k: Done!

More man than man. ᕙ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ᕗ My goals are to increase my 5k pace, and boost my stamina on 10k runs, both for the Road and Road 10k in Kinvara in March. I have every confidence in myself that I’ll succeed and complete the Road and Road event and reach my intermediate goals.

Wet Run

Storm Eleanor has left the power out in places and half of Galway underwater from the tidal surge. Okay, so my pace despite the weather-I had the wind against me the entire way, and it rained twice-makes me happy, because it continues to be on a downward slope. Sorry for the graph. It’s the result […]

2017

There’s a sorrow in me, a deep sadness for the hurt I’ve caused, the hurt caused to me, and the toll in joy it takes from us. We all lose something fundamental as we get older. We learn that our intent mightn’t be theirs, that they’ll take what they want. We learn about lies and […]

December 26

My head hurts, but it doesn’t hurt. There’s pressure, not in my head but in my head, if you get me. Got an itch in my feet to get up and go, to run and scream and laugh and jump. I’m angry and happy and fucked up and tired and pissed off and content, and […]

Still Young

Youngish? Far off may the day be that I can no longer balance on the wall at the Plots.

#fastforwardfiveyears

Jesus fuck, but me then. It astounds me what diet, exercise, and a royal kick up the arse have done for my attitude and appearance. And in going farther out, I definitely no longer look like a cringy attic-dweller.

Go Party Team!

Holy heck, but one year at GirlCrew. We had an amazing night out at Tippenyaki in Rathmines

On Being Vulnerable (as a Good Thing)

We discus vulnerability as a negative because we need to protect vulnerable persons, which is that’s fair. One of the marks of society is in the way we treat our weak and helpless. What we overlook is being vulnerable as a positive. I mean, we’re vulnerable all the time. We’re vulnerable when we share with […]

March for Repeal

At least one hundred people attended the March for Repeal today in Dublin.

Sietch

At Balscadden Bay

I spent an enjoyable evening in reflection on the beach. :)

Happy early birthday to me

I enjoyed Magic: the Gathering, barbeque and a nightcap finger of whiskey.

No to everything

I did an online quiz. Rabble rabble, power to the people.

New Home, New Life

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The Ascent of Carrickgollogan

And by the title, what I mean is that I walked over the Scalp, summited the mighty Carrickgollogan, visited the ruined earthenworks of Ballycorus, and thence descended to Cherrywood. The walk was straightforward (some bits up, other bits down), the weather unpredictable, and my thoughts strange. Eadaoin and I are in the middle of a […]

Beautiful Mark, Beautiful Galway

:3 After last night spent with Jennifer, I had lunch with mum in Galway, then wandered the city for the evening. The weather was glorious. I miss Galway, I miss home.

Always Grouchy

Taken at Blackrock, Dublin.

2016

Listos version: Lots happened, more yet to come. Stay tuned.